A green-colored glowing 4:30 a.m. is the first image I see nearly every morning. No matter how hard I try to close my eyes and not open them, my mind continues to turn its gears. The harder I try not to wake up, the more my mind fights this by accelerating its pistons. Ultimately, one to two hours later, I can’t stand it and give up and get up out of bed.
Articles have been written about people who have a similar sleep disorder during the pandemic, called Covid-somnia or coronasomnia.
The year 2020 is almost over, and thank goodness. If you live in Los Angeles, the Lakers and Dodgers each winning a World Championship in October, the first time that has happened since 1988, were two bright spots in a year that will otherwise forever go into the history books as the year of the coronavirus pandemic.
Congratulations—we are surviving a world health crisis. This was a golden missed opportunity for people of all political persuasions to come together on a common goal: diminishing the impact of the virus. If we had the right president in office, a unifier not a divider, this would have been an enlightening moment for America. While not as bad as the Great Depression or World War II, this was our crisis test to continue the American tradition of working together for the common good of our neighbors.
Thank God most of us do not have loved ones defending America around the world. Limiting contact with friend and family to Zoom sessions should not have been that big of a sacrifice.
Sadly, we failed the test. If people can’t agree on science, then conflict separates us. Wearing masks, staying at home, limiting social contact were traits on a resume to see if you were Pro-Trump or anti-Trump.
The new surge in Covid cases across the country combined with a President who does not want to leave office continues playing havoc with people’s sleeping habits.
No wonder I keep waking up at 4:00 a.m. each day. From mid-March to mid-November, 8 straight months and counting, has been the most anxious continuous length of time most of us have ever lived through. And it will likely be another 8 months before the majority of Americans receive a vaccination.
If you are waiting for normal to return, best to wait it out until 2022 which is less than 14 months away.
I don’t know about you, but I find myself overeating and not sleeping well. Even the holidays are dripping with anxiety. Families unable to be together, arguments in families between those who fear the virus and those who ignore it, masks vs. no masks is enough unpleasantness to kill the Christmas spirit.
Besides sports, during this year I have found solace in comedy. My wife and I discovered “Schitt’s Creek,” the best family sitcom since “Everybody Loves Raymond.” What makes the show so appealing is its perfect casting from the stars to the supporting cast. What makes the show memorable is that it treats a family with a gay son as nothing special. The show is not about messaging about homosexuality. Its only message is about the love between parents and children.
The other thing I find calming is watching old Huell Howser episodes. I just finished the one he did in 2005 on Oak Glen with all the apple orchards. I still can’t believe he died in 2013 at age 67. He was such a genuine loving human being, with the curiosity of a child and the heart of a saint. Not a phony bone in his body.
It didn’t matter if he was visiting an old oak tree or an old man with an elephant as a best friend, his ingratiating personality always reacting with a genuine “wow” at discovering something is a salve for today’s times when it seems Americans are fighting other Americans.
It is also something of a curiosity to see how life used to be not that long ago when people shook hands with one another and stood a foot not six feet apart. In one episode at Oak Glen apple orchards, customers were encouraged to use the their bare hands in sampling free apple slices from paper bowls. No social distancing, no washing of hands, no masks. A farmer with his bare hand used a knife, cut off a hunk, and handed it to Huell who ate it and . . . lived without getting sick.
And every person Huell interviewed was decent and nice, something that is missing in so much of our lives these days.
I am worried about the future of our country and world. There is little connective tissue that we share anymore.
For so long, Americans shared common experiences. We now live in a time when each person can create his own world. Some may like this, that they can tailor their music, social media, TV content to their own taste. But when each person lives in a bubble when it comes to facts, science, and only feeds themselves political views that they have, they can easily vilify those with different views.
History has plenty of examples where once people look at other people as unequal, we are only a small step away from causing harm to the “others.” History is full of these stories. They are called genocides.
Once people like me die off who lived through better times for America, younger people who didn’t grow up that way won’t even recognize the loss. I’m glad I won’t be around to see what that America will be like.
And that’s why I see “4:30” each and every morning.